
I made the binding from hand dyed cloth from Lunn Fabrics over the edges of the pages I'd hand sewn together, after I'd quilted each double-sided page separately. I added batting to the binding fabric, to give it more body, so that it would have the same feel as the quilted pages themselves.

This is the inside cover and the title page. I drew my own publishing company logo for The Edible Press, which I've used on my own greeting cards and little xeroxed paper books for as long as I can remember. The logo says: "People should eat art" above the Edible Press lips, with "Wooster, Ohio" written underneath. I drew some of my Peace Roses for my girl on these pages and on the front cover.
The stories I'm going to write here are not from a transcript of what I put into this book. I don't make transcripts, and I write on the work right off the top of my head. So I'm just looking at the pictures now and putting down new thoughts to go with the paintings here. This is a separate narrative about Gretchen's life, from the one hand written in the book. But this blog entry and the book tell the same stories, just in different ways.

On the left side here is my impression of me, being pregnant in 1970. I wanted a baby, but especially I wanted a little girl, and would spend time reminding God of my very serious preference! My first husband and I were at Kent State, visiting my brother, when the riots broke out. We had to walk around, escorted by National Guard soldiers with bayonets, and there was a light cloud of tear gas hovering in the air. Having just found out recently that I was pregnant, I just wanted to get out of Kent, as I was so worried that I might lose my baby. We got out safely on Saturday, May 2, but we all know what happened two days later. It made me glad that I had dropped out of Kent when I did, at the end of my first quarter there, as an art student in 1968, as I had joined SDS and was active in antiwar protests back then. I think I woulda been in that crowd up on the Commons, when the killings happened at Kent State on May 4, 1970, had I not dropped out to get married.
I had a good pregnancy, except for some serious back pain in the sixth or seventh month. I took the first Lamaze class at The College of Wooster, given by Pris Gates and Martie Taggart, who also educated us about breast feeding via the La Leche League. This was radical stuff in 1970, and I had the first Lamaze delivery at Dunlap hospital in Orrville, OH. Gretchen was born on December 19, 1970, ten days after my due date, in a drug-free delivery, which was my goal, and I worked very hard to make that happen. We young hippie rebel moms were few back then in Ohio, but thanks to my classes, I was able to do it!
On the right side page above, you see Gretchen and her first toy, Kitty Owl. When Gretchen was born, she was exactly the same length as Kitty Owl, the toy I'd knitted for her, during my pregnancy. We still have Kitty Owl, who's made of two shades of purple yarn, with orange felt accents and some yarn embroidery, and is stuffed with stockings. I merrily made many of Gretchen's baby and girl clothes, including many little hippie girl dresses (that's what she calls them now) and sweaters, etc. I would take her downtown in her stroller, and we'd sit together, looking at patterns and then select our fabrics for outfits. Then we'd often walk to the library for Story Hour or other delights there. Life was good!

When Gretchen was little, one of her best friends was Philip, who lived across the street from our house on N. Walnut Street in Wooster. The two of them would play and play, and his mom Jenny and I taught at Panda Playschool for a while, so the kids could attend it. Phil gave Gretchen the purple plastic clogs he'd outgrown, and she gave him Moby Grape, the purple man doll I'd made for her. They both thought they got the better end of the deal. :)
Another friend of Gretchen's, Nicki, lived beside us, and her mom got Gretchen to join Nicki in ballet classes at Batine Winch's Dance Studio in Wooster. Later Gretchen danced at the new Wooster Art Center, which started at the college, and she'd walk from her school to my college studio, to get ready to go to class with Teresa Perrot. It was magical to watch my sweet little girl dancing! For years Gretchen was my Tiny Dancer, and a lot of my art at The College of Wooster over the years, was about her. My advisor George Olson paid Gretchen a few times to pose in her ballet outfit for his drawing classes, probably on days off from her own school.

Here's a detail of the righthand page above, where Gretchen is playing Candyland with my mother, whom Gretchen called Panny. (Yes, it's an inherited title that Eva now calls me.) My mom and dad lived out at Smithville, about a ten minute drive from our place in Wooster, and they'd babysit Gretchen when I had to go somewhere, when she was too little to stay alone, or before that, when she couldn't stay with her girlfriends or our commune housemates. I remember Mom making animal-shaped pancakes especially for Gretchen, and brewing Grandma's Tummy Mint Tea for both of them. Mom sewed, wove rugs, gardened organically, and read lots of really thoughtful books. She went back to her RN job when Gretchen was a year old, and yet, she always had time for her grandchildren.

In 1976, my first marriage ended, and my brother Jimmy Shie and I started a little commune in Wooster, which we named The Needle's Eye, after a coffee house he had helped run in Kent. (That was the place we had gone up to visit, the weekend of the Kent protests and killings.) We'd begun the Needle's Eye in Wooster with the intention of having the music only, but soon people wanted to rent rooms in our large old house at 568 E North St. So we rented to friends who were interested in folk music, and the lively old house became a little commune.
On the left above is Gretchen, who was almost 6 when we started the Needle's Eye, happily surrounded by nine cats. That's the most cats we got up to, as many of the people who moved in had their own cats.
My OTHER Jimmy, Jimmy Acord, and I met in Sept, 1976 and he wuold come to the folk music jam sessions each Friday night, along with many other people. He moved in with me in January, 1977, and we shared a lovely little attic bedroom. Ah, the romance of those times! Gretchen was in first grade, and she had a best friend Alissa, who lived two doors over from us.
We had the Eye from mid 1976 to early 1979. After that, Jimmy Acord, Gretchen, and I moved to a house on Washington St, where Gretchen had a best friend across the street, Heather. On the right above, I painted Gretchen and Heather, giving one of their wonky and wild puppet shows in Gretchen's bedroom. The closet door was a curtain, and they figured out it could be a neat puppet theater. They made themselves weird and wonderful hats to wear during performances.

In June, 1980, Gretchen and I took a Greyhound bus ride to Eugene, Oregon, so I could take summer school classes at the University of Oregon, where my College of Wooster friend Kathy Ruth had moved to, after her graduation. I'd been told it would take three days on the bus, but the station manager was wrong: it was four days. And I was crazy enough to drag my guitar along! Ugh! Gretchen and I made the best of the trip, but the worst thing was that rumors were flying, that Mt St. Helens was going to errupt again, and that it could trigger 23 other volcanic mountains in the area going off, and that could cause the West Coast to fall into the ocean. We got to Eugene; I freaked out on bringing my nine year old girl into harm's way, and two weeks later we went back on the bus - four days again, of course - to Wooster. That was the only year I didn't do summer school in college, in my nontraditional student panic to catch up! Gretchen and I have never made another trip alone together, before or since. But it had its good points, and I hope someday we can do it again. Not on the bus!! Maybe we can take Eva and visit Robin in New York in a few years! THAT would be really nice!
On the right side of the double page above, I told about Gretchen breaking her left wrist. It was in April, 1981, when she was ten. She was roller skating, which she was really good at, and another girl chased her on a Big Wheel and basically ran her off the sidewalk. Gretchen's skate caught in the little ditch where the sidewalk was weeded, and she fell, breaking her fall by putting her arm out. They had to put her under to set the wrist bones, and she was in a cast for six weeks. We'd never had any broken bones in my family, so this was all new to us! Yikes! I just remember hating it, when she got out of the cast and put her skates back on in Kent. I just couldn't look! But she never fell again.

This is a detail of the left side of that double page above, of the bus trip, with the ballet doll I'd made for Gretchen, whom she named Teresa, after her beloved ballet teacher.

In June, 1981, I graduated with a BA in Painting from The College of Wooster. I had ribbons on my robe for graduating with honors and for being inducted into Phi Beta Kappa. It was a very hot day to be wearing wool robes, but there we were, out in the Oak Grove on campus, with the kilt-wearing Wooster Scots band playing for us. Many people in my family came to my graduation, which made me really happy. When the ceremonies were over, I playfully switched hats with Gretchen, who was wearing a girl's ball cap. So she had on my mortarboard, which I thought was great, since we'd been through a LOT together, in order for me to graduate that day! She had come to MY classes on days when her school was closed, and everyone knew my Gretchen well in several disciplines! A woman scolded Gretchen for wearing my graduation cap, but WE knew she had every right to put it on proudly! How could that crabby woman know how much Gretchen had actually participated in my college days?
On the right side in the image above is a painting of Gretchen tearing around Kent with her girlfriends. Moving to Kent, we found ourselves in the midst of a bunch of women going to college late, who had kids around Gretchen's age. Whereas my College of Wooster girlfriends loved Gretchen, because she reminded them of little sisters back at their homes, now my Kent friends girls were Gretchen's own pals. We lived in the Allerton Apartments, which belonged to the university, and were where students who were married and/or had children lived. A long ways away from where the regular students lived!